#probably cuz of the audhd. everything is because of the autism or the adhd or both

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

i think it's nice how tengoku's the first game but also still manages to be v good. the second best rhythm heaven. i mean the second best rhythm heaven is fan club 2 but i mean you know what i mean-

[yer-a-mess-kid]

I dated this toxic guy for awhile, who would use his adhd as an excuse for why he was abusing me, and it lead me to think, for a bit, that people with adhd were abusive, because, and this is Crazy.

I tried to tell him once or twice that I was dx'd with adhd as a kid,a nd he told me I couldn't have it because I was:

A) Too aware of my surroundings/dirt/clutter

B) Too capable of cleaning and taking care of myself

C) willing to manage the household, meaning my appointments, his, and everything else in between.

it wasn't until later, when i brought up my childhood dx with my therapist and my psychologist that they told me that i was actually overfunctioning to compensate for his lack of/inability to function or manage himself, and that the reason why i suddenly seemed to lose a bunch of skills i used to have was because i was probably experiencing audhd (I have both) burn out :,)

i've since figured out, after breaking up with him, that his abuse was actually just because he's an abusive piece of shit who likes to gaslight people and make everything about himself, not cuz he has adhd. i have autism and adhd both, and my partner now has audhd and is also Not like that. i feel stupid for ever being lead to believe his adhd was causing him to act like that. i mean, this dude used his hyperfixations to abuse me, it was even down to shit like that. i swear to you that every fandom he ever got into was the most important thing to ever happen to him, and that i was like. victimizing him if i didn't match his obsession with everything he was interested in. like??? my current partner has been SUPER into Zelda for the past couple of weeks (we're both interested in it) but he never acts like i'm killing him to DEATH if i don't match his freak every day sldkjf

like, i do think he has adhd and it really causes him to struggle, but i don't believe for a second that i need to Partake in his dysregulation in order to care for him.

oh right, the other thing? i once brought up the mental load to him and he said i was being ablelist lmaoo

[nagichi-boop]

Heey i really liked your message about one of your characters representing neurodivergency such as autism, NPD and BPD. It really resonated with me. Thank you so much for that. Do you happen to struggle with neurodivergency or a personality disorder as well?

(I assume this ask is referring to this post)

Hey! I wish I could take the credit for making Shadow, but alas. I also don’t think it was the creator’s intention for the scene to be interpreted in this way, but it felt like although the literal meaning of the scene is Shadow feeling like a monster because of his DNA, the message could also apply to those with neurodivergencies and mental illnesses.

As regards to your question - I am fairly certain I’m AuDHD (autism + ADHD). I am on the waiting list to be professionally assessed for both, but I’d be heavily surprised if I am not. As for personality disorders, I’m honestly not sure? It was suggested to me a couple of times a few years ago that I may want to look into BPD, and for a while I heavily resonated with it. I struggled to get a professional to assess me since it’s apparently not something the UK really does (told this by multiple docs - they just said they focus on treatment, not diagnosis, which makes little sense to me cuz how can you treat when you don’t know the issue; but anyways).

I recently felt fine for months and assumed I was cured of all mental illnesses, but recently I’ve kinda flopped again. I wouldn’t say I’m as bad as I was, but I’ve had a few occasions where everything felt like a lot. But I can’t tell if my abandonment issues are as bad - mostly because I’m in a “I can’t be bothered to talk to anyone” sort of phase and so I’m keeping most people at arm’s length and I’m vaguely disinterested/annoyed with everyone for no reason. So whether I have BPD that is just not as bad because I’m not close to anyone, I had it and don’t anymore, or I never had it to begin with - I don’t know. I probably have c-PTSD? But I’m not sure anymore about BPD. I’m not convinced I have it, but I’m also not convinced I don’t have it. Does that make sense?

So I guess for now I’m only comfortable saying with any degree of confidence that I have autism, ADHD and c-PTSD. I hope this answers your question! And I’m glad my original post resonated with you.